Over the past few weeks, I have learned that I don't communicate very well with some people. I don't know why I do this. It only brings people hurt. Cause I will just shut people out and blame them for a bunch of stuff. When I should be telling them how I feel.
I did learn these things when I went to treatment for substance use disorder. In some weird way, I think I'm trying to change someone for how I want them to be. At the end of the day, I don't want anyone to change to be something they are not. I think this is why I fail at communication in some ways.
I will continue to work on this with my therapist. This is one of many character defects that I have. We all have some. Just who is willing to share theirs when it matters the most. No one is perfect and we all need to remember that.
Later,
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