I've done a lot of talking about my accomplishments on this blog, I do this not to brag that I do no wrong or am superior to anyone. I do it mainly, so I hear that I am making progress or acknowledging it. Part of my character defects are that I am extremely harsh on myself, so by me just stating things in this blog is a self-healing therapy for me. I don't ever want or expect anyone to confirm my accomplishments that's not why I do it. This weekend however, during the Recovery Dharma meeting I facilitate, another member and I were both talking about our children during the meeting and this lady on zoom spoke up and went on praising me and this other gentleman on how we were succeeding at parenting while being in recovery but mainly parenting in general. This touched me so much I began to tear up. My own family members don't tell me the things this lady said, and it was very heartwarming that a total stranger could listen to 3 minutes of random talk and speak out parent to parent and tell us how well we were doing.
This was just what I needed inside and out to hear. Some affirmation that all my struggles and sacrifices were noticed by someone who knew nothing about me, had no reason to sugar coat things or feel obligated to tell me what I want to hear. It makes me feel good just talking good about myself, which is a new concept for me, but when someone else says it, it just solidifies that your efforts are well worth it. Many people, even without a substance abuse problem, struggle with life's daily hectic schedule, but add having to always think of recovery on top of life, it gets to be a lot. So, to all of you out there making it another 24 hours, I want to tell you that you're doing great and keep up the good work! It's not always easy, but it is worth it. And to the lady on zoom, thank you for your kind words, they meant more than you ever know. Until next time...
Comments