As I sit here in my home this evening, reflecting on everything that has transpired in the last week I find myself almost in awe of what my life has become today. I would've never been able to fathom or concoct a pipe dream that sounds as crazy (in a good way) as what is happening in my life right now. I've kept myself so focused on the tasks at hand and the daily hustle, that I rarely sit back and think of where I was a year ago and how far I've come. Whether in active addiction or in my newfound interest in Eastern Religions and mindfulness practices, one mantra has seemed to always be true: Keep it Moving! During active addiction this always fed into the just live long enough until you get the next hit frame of mind and yet it holds true in my journey today, by recognizing the impermanence of everything, living 24 hours at a time, and refocusing my energy when something isn't pleasing to me or making me a better person.
"The voyage of discovery is not in seeking new landscapes, but in having new eyes." -Marcel Proust
In early recovery I was always told to not live in the past, because we can't change the past, and don't worry about tomorrow, because we can't predict the future. Live in the here and now and be present, but somewhere in this last year I've actually had the realization that I actually might have a future and need to start not only being in the present moment, but actually make plans, that were once only dreams, and now can actually be realistic goals and it feels surreal. I just finished my second consecutive semester at college on the Dean's list, I am now 1 week away from spending 13 days on the other side of the world and am almost a whole year sober! I guess what I'm trying to say is, if you don't like where you are today, then just keep it moving and redirect your energy towards something else and you will be amazed how things will change when you stop focusing on the negative things in life, and things you have no control over, and simply redirect it towards anything else.
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