These last few weeks, I've noticed quite the decline in mood. I've been overly hard on myself, my decisions, my time management, etc. I believe that a lot of my mood swing is due to the fact of my crumby thinking. I think that I overwhelmed myself with expectations I put on myself, then when one thing didn't meet my standard or I felt that I let myself down, I started looking for the problems in things instead of just adjusting or putting in more effort. That one decision, even though I know it was the right decision, snowballed my bad attitude for the recent weeks. I stopped being grateful for the challenges and the opportunities that I do have and started telling myself that it needs to be better.
The idea of positive thinking, seems like it's easy enough, right? For me, someone who always beat myself up and set such high standards on myself, I'm not so great at it. I don't necessarily think that I do it very well at all, even when things are going great, I still in the back of my mind have this notion that impending doom is going to soon follow. I used to incorporate some positive affirmation meditations in my schedule, but somewhere I just turned to a different type of meditations and that just stuck. Anyways, like all good signs from the big guy upstairs, this topic just hit me in the face this week and particularly today. In multiple classes I'm taking, the power of positive thinking has been the highlighted topic. I've been forced to read about it for hours, and now I'm here writing about it. If something isn't going right, sometimes you just have to change your thinking. Try your best and keep pushing forward is all we have to do. Thanks for listening.
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